This year marked my 4th official Mother’s Day, but my 1st Mother’s Day I felt as confident as the mother that I have evolved into today. I say it proud. I feel it proud. I am proud. Nobody can tell me I cannot do something when I have birthed these two lives, which have both almost taken mine. But I am here living and breathing fire.
Jeff Buckley – Hallelujah
This past weekend Mike planned the most amazing birthday surprise for me. I’ve known for weeks that we were going somewhere, but it’s my busy season at work and I honestly haven’t had any time to think about it, let alone, have any kind of excitement towards it. So that entire day was the first time I actually felt the anticipation, eagerness, and joy during the build up. I didn’t know where we were going up until we got there and I saw “The Lights” sign and then my excitement hit its peak. I was overjoyed. This was something that was on my bucket list.
We arrived pretty early to enjoy the festival fun. As you can see below, we started off with double fists of beer, moved along to fill our bellies with food truck treats, and then proceeded to do what everyone else seemed to be doing… have a mini desert landscape photoshoot haha 😂 ! What was not pictured here was Mike trucking along (with his two hands) 2 heavy camping chairs, umbrella and stand, our bag of snacks, and blanket from the car to the hour long line we waited in, and to our spot further inside the festival. In hindsight, a wagon would’ve been nice. I will also mention, I was told to wear a sweater in what felt like 85 degrees. I make a point to say this as a tip to the next man that is thinking about planning a surprise for their significant other because we all know woman are just more organized and prepared 😉.
I became internal this week. I was actually feeling uninspired and unmotivated to write, but after a few days I decided to be proactive instead and take action for my family. And in liu of the senseless, heartbreaking, tragic Las Vegas massacre, I decided to dedicate this post to the first responders and good samaritans that helped save some lives during that terrible event. As sad as it is to have this mindset, this is the reality and current world that I am tasked to raise my children in. But, I would rather be prepared for something that never happens, than to be unprepared if it ever does.